Saturday, August 2, 2008

Time

School is about to start for my girls and I am trying to figure out what I am supposed to be doing with my life. I spent the last school year and this summer so busy I couldn't enjoy anything. Where is the line between doing things that are good and doing too much?

I want to be a helper to my church, my friends and my family but somewhere in all that I get lost. Somewhere I need to learn to take time for me. It seems like I keep waiting for the time but it never appears. I thought just wait for summer and I'll have time to finish my projects at home, time to read my Bible everyday, time to play with my girls and just time to relax. Well NONE of that happened. Now school is getting ready to start so I am thinking that NOW I'll have time to finish my projects, time to read my Bible and time to relax so that I am refreshed and willing to play with my girls when they get home from school. My fear is that I won't have the time I am hoping for.

The girls start school on Wednesday and my day is filled with helping others or going to meetings for things I am helping with. Again, there is no time to do the things on my list.

How can I learn to say no to being busy and yes to doing what God really wants for me. I don't believe that God wants me to be so busy doing that I never have time to be. I want to learn how to be a Mary that can just stop and sit at Jesus' feet even if there are meals to cook or chores to do.

I am hoping and praying that I can change so that I MAKE time to do the things I need to and want to so that when it is all said and done I don't say that I just didn't have time to do.......

1 comment:

MacKenzie said...

I know this is hard for you. I think you're doing a great job at starting to say "no". I love you!